Speed

Everything is happening so fast lately. With such a fast pace, I feel I have very little time for myself. Not much time to relax or do what I like--such as writing, reading, drawing, playing instruments, etc. I would LOVE to have the extra time for all that but I've been so clustered under all my schoolwork and other responsibilities.

Once my winter semester ended, I barely was able to catch up on sleep but after that quick week, here I am back in school. Being a full-time student is no joke and I've also been pretty stressed with the path I'm taking in my educational career. I was so set on becoming a Speech Pathologist and reaching for this goal through majoring in Child Development. Luckily, one of my professors this semester is a Speech Pathology major and we planned a day this week to sit down and talk about the options I can take to reach my goal. She told me straight up how stressful the program is and all these things to expect from it. It scared the hell out of me. If I think I'm stressed now, imagine once I transfer and work on my major.

Growing up is overwhelming. Trying to plan everything on your own and choosing which course suits you best is not as easy as it sounds. There's so much to choose from that I don't even know what's best for myself anymore.

Despite the rush of life, I was able to participate in another open mic. This time not with my poetry, but with a video instead. I'll probably post it on my blog as soon as I set it up on Youtube or something. Filmed in Michelle's house, around Walnut, and around LA. Visited places such as, Alfred Coffee, UCLA, Melrose, and even Kanye & Frank Ocean's neighborhood????!?!?! Pretty fun filming the whole this with Raissa, John, and Chris. I received great feedback after playing my video on Saturday at the open mic.

Kind of wish time slowed down a little bit because I really need it. Other than that, things are going well. Still stuck in certain situations I wish were forgotten and/or forgiven, but we can't always get what we want. In all honesty, I feel like because of my schedule, I've slowly lost the time I should be saving for God. I've been drifting from my daily devotionals and even my parents and I haven't done our family devotionals in a long while. I need to get back on track because I would not be where i am if it wasn't for Him and the abundant blessings and opportunities in my life.