I've been greatly blessed these past couple of months.
I am blessed with an amazing guy who makes me feel loved and truly beautiful. Every detail I saw flawed in myself has been called perfect to him. Every tear that has fallen down my cheek was wiped by him and his presence during these times. The pieces of my broken heart has been picked up and was carefully and beautifully sewn back to place. Every mistake in my past has been forgiven and accepted with him. What's even better is his love for God and seeing him grow the past years has been an amazing view. From the way he holds my hand and brings it close to his lips to when he wraps his arms around me and holds me tight makes me feel luckiest girl alive. The way he reassures me of his intentions and when he would randomly wake up in the middle of the night to tell me he misses me and loves me brings out the biggest smile on my face. I have never met another like him before and I am so glad I've gotten to know him as a best friend before a lover. Everything fell into place for us and I feel like this is God's perfect timing to have us fall in love with one another.
People may not understand what we have but that doesn't matter. What matters is how we make one another feel. I've always known about God's love and parental/family/friendship love, but I believed I have never learned what love was from a significant other. Now that I have experienced all of these, I realized that this love is so similar to God's love for me. I am thankful to have met a man with a burning desire and love for God and that we can grow together as children of God. I love that we are both on the same spiritual path with keeping God in the center of our lives and our relationship. I am thankful that my dreams, aspirations, and even my body is respected through him. I pray for our bond and I pray it prosper to a relationship that expresses and signify's God's intentions of relationships. We are so comfortable around each other and I never feel pressured to do something that makes me uncomfortable. I have met someone who is patient with me and who is understanding of my temper, my fears, and my doubts. I have met someone who cares about my happiness and will do his best to keep me happy. I really hope he feels my love for him is genuine and that I never want to lose him. If something were to happen that would separate us, I pray for his happiness and I pray to stay in contact with him. He will always have a big spot in my heart and in my life.
Seeing him in pain hurts me. It saddens me when I can't conjure the right words to make him feel better and I hate when I can't physically be there for him through the hard times in his life. I pray for the ability to remind him how much I care and that I will always try my best to be there for him even if it isn't through physical presence. He means so much to me and losing him would tear me apart. He's been in my life for the past couple of years and I just can't imagine life without him anymore--even as a best friend. I pray for God's healing touch and for a miracle. I pray for strength and positivity. I pray for an abundance of time with him in the future. I pray for his health, his safety, and even his sanity. I pray everything works out. I know it sounds selfish to ask for more time but I don't want to lose him. It pains me when he thinks negatively about himself or a situation. I want to be able to lift him up and make him feel better. I place all my fears and I place our relationship at God's feet. None of this would have been possible if it wasn't through God's blessings and grace. I owe it all to him to have even met such an amazing guy.
I need to remember to trust God through the good and bad times.
But I'm crazy about him.
& so thankful he's in my life.
