CONSU[ME]D

The world around me is too big

To just be sitting in the same city

Time same room, the same park, the same classroom

Almost every day of the week

The world around me is too big

To go ignored or rescheduled 

Because I'm, "Too busy" or

I'm, "Too broke"

The world around me is too big

To live in sorrow over something so small

So petty

When I could be out making the best of my time

The world around me is too big

And too grand to not thank The Creator above

For something so beautiful

For something worth exploring

The world around me is too big

To not try to meet new faces

New friends, new restaurants, new coffee shops,

Or to be too scared for new beginnings

The world around me is too big

To not try new things

To not step out of my comfort zone

To not take some risks

I've always wanted to meet new people

To get insight on the unique traits we all carry

And to be inspired through them

And to grow

I've always wanted to meet people

Who were as broke as I was but still

Wanted to have a little fun and adventure 

With the little money we had in our pockets

I've always wanted to meet people

That I could share my crazy thoughts with

Or someone who wanted to just "chill"

With a movie and some drinks

I feel like I'm so trapped in this small city

Or trapped under schoolwork 

Or under too many expectations 

That I may have lost myself

[And lost my mind]

I want to go to cheap intimate $5 concerts

It doesn't even have to be an artist I know 

And just listen to new music

And find inspiration through it

But I also want to go to bigger concerts

And dance freely 

And get lost in the moment

Not having to worry about recording the song playing

I sometimes want to disconnect from the world

And find peace within myself

To learn to love myself again

As well as finding Him again

I feel like I've been so caught up with school

And petty problems in life

That I've lost a sense of who I am

Or what I've become

I feel like I've drifted from my faith

And stopped making time out of my day

To talk to the God above

To someone that can be my best friend

I feel like I've drifted from 

Things that I found comfort and solitude in

And getting back in it 

Would be too foreign to me

Such as music, art, reading

Because I've just ran out of time

Or I'm too tired to make time

Or too lazy to find time

Constantly feeling drained 

Out of focus 

Tired

Useless 

Give me some time

I'll be back