The years have passed and the deep cuts have been stitched. If you want to know how I'm doing, let me tell you... I'm doing fine.
Though I've been burdened by your absence for a while, I have found light at the end of the tunnel. I have found what I have not been looking for even without you around. I found a friendship before you than had blossomed into something beautiful. I have found a different kind of love and I found it with someone who cares about how I feel. I have found it with someone who cares about my wellbeing and well as my family's wellbeing. Someone who cares when I'm sad and who cares when I'm quiet and wants to make sure I'm doing okay.
I have found someone willing to meet with me at least once a week despite the distance spaced between us. I have been welcomed into a new family and have been accepted for who I am and who have taken the time to get to know me.
What I have now maybe could have been with you but there are reasons why we did not work out. Most importantly, I have been finding ways to stay in like with you. Forcing myself to be okay with certain things because that's how much I wanted us to work out. I had to force myself to believe something selfishly despite the circumstances in between. But see, now I've found the missing piece I've been looking for. For now the puzzle pieces have fallen perfectly into place. I am where easily fit. I don't have to trim certain edges or adjust myself according to fit.
I'm very happy now. I'll admit that I'm upset at the distance that's grown between us but I've grown to be okay with it because I would not be where I am today without it. Who would have thought all this would have happened within a year? Within a couple of months crying over you? Who would have thought that I'd grow closer to the love of my life with the absence of you? I'll never know how things happened but I'm glad it did. I've never been so happy and I'm so happy that my family loves John just as much as I love him. I'm blessed.
But it was nice seeing you again. I hope you're doing well and I wish I could have talked to you more when I saw you. Wish I could ask about what you're doing now that you're done with school and now that your sister is going to college. But I guess some things are better left unsaid and that's okay.
