I finally listened to Sabrina Claudio's full album that was recently released on Spotify. Stumbled her song "I Don't" and wow, the emotion you hear from her voice sends chills down your body. I don't want to say I can relate to the lyrics, but I can feel the pain through it... and it's making me feel horrible but in a good way? Haha

Today was an okay day. I'm really excited for all my friends graduating this year. I was just thinking about how much I still have to do to graduate and felt overwhelmed with everything. I'm still a year away from it, God willing. I'm still so far from my next steps I need to take in order to even qualify for graduate school. I still have so much left to do. It's hard to stay motivated when I'm thinking about other things. Before I know it, it'll be fall and time for me to start the application process. What if I don't get in anywhere? What if I'm not qualified for anything?

I'm actually looking forward to the spring quarter and the rest of my time at Cal Poly. I've planned out my schedule from now until graduation and the classes I'm taking from here on out will not be easy. My quarters will be packed but hopefully I'll find motivation through there. I guess it's a good thing too because I'll be saving money and going out less again. Today was actually a good class day only because I was able to talk to more people in my class. Normally I will be kept to myself and shy to talk to new people but I was able to converse with a lot of the girls in my class about something other than group work. I'm actually stressed about my final next week, I only have one in class final to take but I'm currently at a B in the class and I need to raise it to at least a B+ since I feel like an A is almost impossible because of what's left to turn in. Crossing fingers though. Next quarter I'm taking one Child Dev class, a Biology class split into 3 separate classes, and an Abnormal Psychology class. I'm excited most for the psych class but I'm also mentally preparing myself for the papers and exams. I'm mostly scared for my planned fall schedule because I'm taking a physiology class and I've heard lots of heads up about what to expect through it.

Need to stay strong in my faith. I know God can give me the best support and strength to get through this. I may be a little behind that my friends but I know I'll get there eventually. I just need to remember to take things one step at a time.

The Lord is far from the wicked, 

but he hears the prayer of the righteous 

Proverbs 15:29