And just like that--you stole my heart. And with it you stole every piece of me I thought was broken forever. You took it all away and I almost forgot I even had those pieces left. But you took more than just those pieces. You took my tears, my scars, and empty hands.
I can thank you in so many ways but I can't seem to do so. You may have taken things that have brought me down in my past but it does not mean you have never brought me down yourself. Many nights I wonder maybe a little too much over the smallest details that are unfinished and incomplete. With your cliffhangers and your mysteriousness, I don't know how much longer I can keep holding on.
It may be my fault for leaving my heart out on the vacant table you so happened to sit on. But something in me is telling me you sat there for a reason and that I will one day understand why. The thing is, I'm honestly getting so tired of waiting for what I'm starting to feel is nothing.
Maybe I'm just a fool who read the signs wrong because I never had a sense of direction when it came to things like this. I'm just so sad and I'm hating it. I may not be your past but I am another person. I'm always willing to put in so much effort to only get nothing in return. It's a constant cycle and I just thought that maybe I'll get something in return for once.
I never wanted to share my feelings with others but I couldn't help it because you brought out the biggest smiles I've had in a very long time. But now, I'm lost and don't know what to do, where to go, how to feel… I'm just here like always. Sitting in my dark room at 4 in morning with nothing but you on my mind mixed with my toxic thoughts.
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